OMG! Did I cry.
I cried when I traded in each one of my cars/vans/sports cars. Not that I have had a lot of them, I just really loved my vehicles. Each one was carefully saved for and planned. We always paid cash and didn't finance them. It made it the vehicle a purposeful purchase. I took lots of time to consider and test and decide what I wanted.
My CRV was no exception.
So I cried when they loaded it up and drove off.
You might think I cry a lot. Actually I don't. I am pretty stoic. I am the one in the crisis that handles stuff and makes decisions and is there. Carrie gets that virtue from both parents. But we are pretty stoic people.
Now I just cry about my lost stuff.
But like my friend Charlene says, it is cathartic. It is what puts the period at the end of the sentence.
They took my car away today.
QUILTS AND DOGS We are back in the house since the Aug 2016 flood. Dogs are great and I am back to doing the quilting thing. Join us on our new journey in a "new" house.
oh noooooo yet another loss.
ReplyDeleteI could count the approx. yards in one drawer of a metal drawer unit like Ikea. That's my system, and that might help you add up your loss. Want me to try? It would be many many thousands of yards here I betcha. I know I have hundreds of quilting books too. There is much more than you think is there. When My friend opened a business she had to count her yards of stash fabric and was astounded.
One bite at a time and one day at a time. You can get thru it. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteOne of my friends recently sent a meme about women who cry, but still get things done. I cry a lot. I cried when I fired a woman who fell asleep on the job, lied on her time sheet and insulted her coworkers. I cried when my daughters got married, when friends and family died. I cried when my daughter fell off a balance beam and split her chin open, right after the doctor finished stitching her up an d my husband took over caring for her. Crying is an essential for me. I cry to flush the extremes of feelings. But I get stuff done sometimes through tears, sometimes after I have finished I cry. So cry because I know you are making it through your days and getting stuff done. Bye-bye CRV. The tears are yours and you need them for you and no one else has a right to tell you your feelings and tears are right are wrong. They just are. You are better today than other days and you will get better slowly and some things will heal quickly, some will never completely heal. You are doing what you can and you are sharing your feelings. keep up the good work.
ReplyDeleteYou have been thru so much. Crying may be a way for you to mentally adjust to change. It sounds like every day is a challenge. Just make sure you get enough sleep. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteCrying cleanses the soul - do not be embarrassed or ashamed. Just let the tears fall . . . and allow yourself to grieve. It's okay -- we all understand.
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